Every minute a life ends

it hurts to be honest.

2010-06-23T23:28:00.000-07:00

seriously, i am so hurt by her. look, i'm straight you guys. but have you guys ever felt that when you are so close to someone like buddies and they tend to treat you differently just because you weren't around for a few months and found a new friend who i might say is no better than me.

seriously, i've always been there for her. and yet at work she's been giving me the cold treatment. like, wth. i've helped her alot in the past. i've always been there for her. and this is what i get. seriously, i don't deserve it.

if she came across this blog one day. there's one thing i can say. if you friend is more better than me, and if that friend can make you forget me. than you are the kind of person who don't appreciate true friends. i'm sorry. thats all i can say.

it's been a while.

2010-06-10T22:43:00.000-07:00

i think its been a while i update this blog. maybe a year ago. guess what. new pictures.

CISCO PEEPS

2009-05-10T07:28:00.000-07:00

Pictures Always worth thousands of words. and im so FAT now.

2 weeks yet still so close

2009-05-04T06:00:00.000-07:00

we've only known everyone for 2 weeks yet everyone is like super close to each other right now. everyone is so adult like and things have been going well. but im tired cause imagine working 7 days a week and work 12 hours a day without any off day. that is VERY VERY hectic. HR come on Tuesday i want complain seh.!

taken during the end of orientation

the amazing race looking for Raffles Medical Group

taken during training. look how tired we are. Soooo tired

ms ayu and me. looks young? but shes married. haa haa

WORK, WORK, WORK.

2009-04-15T06:56:00.000-07:00

Work has been freaking tough lately. not tough as in physical but mental. just 3 days of cramping basic security stuff, head all headache. Been with Cisco for 3 days and i tell you, instructor, all gila2 type. make you laugh and sometimes can scare you when it comes to business. test was today and thank god i passed, lucky no need stay back.

got to know a few people. just like basic hi's and bye's. been hanging out with Elle and Lela aka Lala. quite nice people i must say. all above me. older than me la. and some more adults people, now have been a friends of mine.

good thing about that whole training is, they don't care whether you work as director or excutive or all high post, now we are all same level but different age. start from scratch.

and this few words my Sir said to me really keep me thinking about marriage couple (though it has nothing to do with what im saying)

"if you can go around sleeping with other women, can you bare to see your own wife in bed with another man?"

cool eh? haa

hang out with the ladies.

2009-03-27T04:23:00.001-07:00

went out with the girls few days ago watching some horror movie which still haunts me and scares the shits out of me( does that sounds right?) ha ha. and now, i have to sleep with my sister. i may look big on the outside, still scared as a mouse on the inside. i didn't watch the whole movie. just quick glances at some few scenes. as always, when going to watch a horror movie at a cinema, i always bring my jacket and my music player, blasting loud musics in my ear. still cinema surround sound are still louder than my earphones.

headed to T3 after. something funny happened in the girls toilet which i must say makes everyone laugh with tears coming out from our eyes. just wish i had caught the whole thing and i will put on blog as Singapore's craziest outing video. ha ha.

Nana has gone to Cambodia. hope she buy me some stuff. ha ha. have a safe trip. loves.

look what i got at Robinson sale. Britney's perfume! finally. been a huge fan of Brit, no matter what people say. Just hope that i can save up more to buy the whole collection of Britney's perfume.

Got terminsted just cause i ask about working hours??!!

2009-03-07T20:55:00.000-08:00

i just couldn't believe what happened to me recently. i got a job, then i got terminated. how crazy is that??!!

i worked like 9 hours a day, 6 days per week. then while i was working, i keep asking myself. the contract says i must work standard of 44 hours a week. then now i work more than that. and i didn't know that overtime is like super compulsory la. cause according to MOM, overtime is not a must.

i didn't want to complain. i can work overtime but cannot everyday overtime la seh. can die.

this is what happens when you rush into things too much. at last can go kakak chalet with her colleagues.

Kak yana. thanks so much for the ice-cream and the arangs and the chalet. saper2 yang curi our arang confirm kena accident. big mistake putting it outside chalet. haa haa.

thanks to Nana, Lina, Hizan and Farah for the wishes. must work la on that day. like crazy seh. dah tua aku!. tak nak lah. i want to stay 18 forever!! arrrhhhh.

Grad day Over

2009-02-12T20:56:00.000-08:00

Graduation is finally over. Everyone looked so smart and damn it they dressed up good. Ms Ida came for the ceremony. It really meant a lot to me. My parents didn't want to come but she did. love her super much. sneaked out early to go out makan.

Went back later to meet up with the rest and to take my cert. the whole thing ended later than expected. thank god i was out. so waited in the car for a few minutes till everyone walks out of the function hall. took a couple of pictures and hang out with the gang.

Always be prepared to take pictures anytime, anywhere. haa haa

Look how cool everyone is. Like some kind of business party.

Two years of craziness still alive in formal style.

See, go makan in the middle of the ceremony.

Though, girls always stick together.

While waiting for the whole thing to start.

Not close with them but still okay.

Going home time, last picture of the day

i'm bored to death.

2009-02-09T06:01:00.000-08:00

i am just so bored to death at home.
i've applied like hundreds of application for a job but none came back.
i actually got one but they actually cut me off at the last minute saying they are cutting manpower.
what kind of a bullshit is that?

well, grad is coming and i still cant find the perfect shoes.
i have no high-heels. damn it.

guess i'll grow in some kind of a fat-ass sleeping in school.
since schools reject my HIGH GPA points, which i still don't understand.
dumb-ass school. haa haa.

It was so amazing.

2009-02-02T04:43:00.000-08:00

yesterday was like so kekek la sey. went to bugis library which i must say damn hard to find their parking basement. ended up driving one whole round again haa haa. and with people who have licensed years ago just swoop into my lane. everytime a car do that i would shout "bang!" hoping they get into accident.

it's so hard to find pants with such big ass. haa haa. hang out at vivo, walk the whole vivo which i must say a little but paiseh and then head to sentosa cause i wanted to show the girls the other part of rich town in sentosa. i remember i brought my ITE friends there. with their 'eh, lawar seh' and i remember pi'e used to say 'maut seh tempat nie' was the same reaction i brought lina and nana in. haa haa. guess i still can get in for free, and i saw mom's old employer. saw beau and baxter too.

and what's up with chocolate cravings? took someone 10 mins to find a good choc. haa haa. now i realise its so hard to find a good choc bar in singapore. sugar does make people go crazy. haa haa

Graduation Day

2009-01-30T04:41:00.000-08:00

well well, grad day is coming and i still don't know what to wear. i got this good bargain shirt at G2000. which originally cost $99 but i got it for $39. how crazy is that.

well, stuff hasn't been great with me lately. i got transferred to a smaller room, leaving my computers and stuff. it stinks.

it can't stop thinking about stuff. you know, now i know why mom dislikes her that much. guess i have to agree once and for all. my cousin has been great, he told me everything. like getting his license which i must say he is a little bit jealous of me.

hanging out with the girls this Sunday, finding some grad stuff. was supposed to find it with someone else but things didn't go quite right the last time we met. like i said, INVISIBLE.

Lina, Nana, Farah, thanks for accompanying me to buy the clothes. after that nak lepak at sentosa or vivo city? i can get in for free. haa haa. see you guys super soon.

Now you tell me.

2009-01-21T06:49:00.000-08:00

Is there anything that can make you happy?
I don't know what to say to make it better.
Seeing you like this, down and hurt so badly,
When you have been so kept together.
What's this?

All this time i thought you didn't need me,
Now i'm gone from you and now you tell me.

Am i invisible?

2009-01-20T20:49:00.000-08:00

am i invisible to everybody?
i'm just wondering how lonely must that be.

FRIENDS FIESTA

2009-01-20T05:55:00.000-08:00

Its so cool that my buddies agreed to come over this weekend. Its like reunion all over again. I so missed them so much. I didn't know what to do cause i'm not a good host when there's guys around and so maybe watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S from series 1 to 10 the entire day. wow, thats long.

i had my room refurnished. we switched furniture and now i have her queen size bedroom while she sleeps on my one bed till we find someone. haa haa. serves her right.

well, things been great for me. nothing great happen for the past few days. just the days i went out with ms ida. not really ms, but mdm. haa haa. i missed her lot. though i must say, ITE life not so relaxing. Good luck babe. haa haa.

where is everybody?

2008-12-15T06:27:00.001-08:00

since school ended, had not been gathering with the others except for the DK guy. who has been like super close to me ever since school close. 2 years pass by so fast and boy, do i miss those crazy people.
Syaf has been gone to indo for his coaching tennis lesson.
Sad, had been busy with work.
Wend, no news on where she had gone to.
Jovine and Irene, MIA.
DK, well, still alive.

meeting these guys during graduation. MISSES.

britney's amazing performance

2008-12-03T08:05:00.000-08:00

GUESS WHO'S REALLY BACK?

2008-12-02T02:14:00.000-08:00

It's my idol. Britney Spears. Check out her recent performance. Fantastic.

Circus Album out now.

OPEN HOUSE 19 OCT 2008

2008-10-22T07:36:00.000-07:00

Pictures are worth thousands of words right?

amazingly sentosa

2008-10-13T06:45:00.000-07:00

drove to school today but to find out that the next class starts at 3. thats like a long 5 hours break la. then, i decided that we have our early lunch at harbour front. just me and the rest were boys. im not shy around them cause we are already like brothers and sisters.

so, we had aint no plan after and i ask them whether the wanted to see the view at sentosa cove. they were so excited. were even more excited when we drove pass the houses. with all the "alamak, cool ke per." and "maut sak rumah." feels like they really have never seen such houses in singapore.

met up with mom and my doggies at sentosa cove. asked mom to bring the dogs out for a walk. then after, relax at the nearby beach. the feeling was like super calm la. no noise. not like the city noises. and somemore. very windy. one of the guys ask me whether they could come here again and sun tan since the place is like so calm and peaceful, well, let's just see. not everybody can drive in. only people with such high privilages are allowed to. haa haa.

it's FRIDAY

2008-09-19T06:47:00.000-07:00

School's out. It's the holidays baby. didn't attend school today but meet up the gang in the evening to breakFast together. i mean, we rarely hang out and talked to each other. but today, we talked about stuff, how's things been going on, what happen to this, what happen to that. bla bla bla. although it was a short hang out, but it was at least worth something. i mean, bonding with our teacher and her son, which i must admit, super cute and super hyper energetic.

here are the pictures taken. i was told that my camera is super sensitive and even a slight shake can cause a blur in the pictures. which is exactly what happen when my friends starts taking pictures with my phone. guess they are no use to it eh?.

Hello Again.

2008-09-08T06:58:00.000-07:00

firstly, let me start by saying sorry to those who read my blog but found nothing and trust me, your complains on phone are super irritating. ha ha.

i'm not busy, just a bit lazy to type and also sometimes, i have no time, and sometimes i forget.

anyhoos, newsflash. let see.....

ooh ooh, got my driver's license. finally. alhamdullilah. without HIS guidance i wouldn't have passed. Now, i drive my dad's car most of the time and drive to and fro to school. lazy eh? i paid for the petrol so make use of it.

of cause with that car, during lunch we ate outside. i remeber eating at airport with the gang and the ERP itself cost me 3 bucks.

and when we wanted to get back to school, we kinda got lost and i drove all the way to marine parade instead. how far is that dude. haa haa. but those guys were kind enough to pay for my petrol. stick together, pay together.

i do have story to share but i'm still waiting for a video so that i can paste it here.

well, blog again. drive safely.!

She IS Family

2008-06-21T06:18:00.000-07:00

We never knew that this day would come. I never knew that this day would.

she was like a family to us, to all of us. She is family.

i'll never forget her. i bet none of us would. especially my baby niece.

shes so close to her. and yet, i think its so hard to say goodbye.

the look of my niece's face when she hugged and kissed goodbye. the last hug that brought tears to everyones eyes.

at least i still have pictures of her and us taken. she had pictures of us taken on her camera too before she took off home. she's gonna miss us as much as we miss her.

Her work here is done. After 2 years of working with my auntie it's time she go home.

no one knows when she'll come back. even if she does, she's working for someone else. hope she got treated better, cause we believe she do deserve better.

WE LOVE YOU. DON'T FORGET US, CAUSE WE WON'T.

Congkak

2008-06-15T00:11:00.000-07:00

From the director of "Jangan Pandang Belakang"

CONGKAK

Another movie which i personally thought that it some sort of make sense. not like some other lame horror movie. recommended to watch.

life with dogs.

2008-06-13T17:25:00.000-07:00

dogs are like the cutest thing i've ever seen. well the small ones of cos. not the big ones with the tongue keep sticking out. eew. i have 2 pet dogs myself(not mine la, my mom's sort of take care of the house that came along with the dogs, haa haa.)

even though im packed with works and driving lesson and such, i took few days off and follow my mom to sentosa cove where she works and play with the dogs. according to Islam, we can't touch dog. but let me emphasize on that. we cannot touch dogs only when its wet, if its dry you're safe. but to be safer wear glover in case the dogs licks you.

how cute are they?? lol

my first driving lesson.

2008-05-08T03:51:00.000-07:00

so excited that i'm now taking my driver's license. ha ahaa
you got to admit that it's cool to drive your car to school and go out after.
man, i hope i'll take the test once. can't wait to drive my daddy's car.
been in an auto car before, never a manual car.
but hope it goes well...

thumbs up for me....

where has the time go?

2008-04-25T08:33:00.000-07:00

you weren't there for me, you never were.
where has the time go?

you didn't listen to what i had to say,
where has the time go?

i crashed down, but you weren't helping me
where has the time go?

i said goodbye in silence and ignored you,
seriously, where has the time go?

family always there for you!

2008-04-20T02:58:00.000-07:00

Before Abg Az big day. Preparation. Some are hand decorated by mom and her sisters.

why.

2008-04-17T07:16:00.000-07:00

i dont really know what is this feeling. but i feel like im just another booty call. felt so insecure but that is the feeling i get. am i being played? are my friends right? are my parents right?

sometimes felt being so used but not. being so ready to be there but stopped instead. dang.

ps: glad to be united with my pri friends. peace.

CONGRATULATION

2008-04-14T21:55:00.000-07:00

congrats to ms ida on her newborn baby.

finally a happy family. ha ha

this pisses me off

2008-03-30T06:54:00.000-07:00

money is really my BIG enemy which i cannot avoid.

if you owe money from your family members, please at least make a habit to PAY BACK!. i mean c'mon, if you can change your car to a better one(not that i jealous, no use. its a vampire car.) and go on holidays and spent hundreds over dollars, might as well you use the money and pay back. there's no use being stuck an egoistic person where you would just show off your stuff but people know you have NOTHING inside.

thank god its adult problem. and i know my mom worked hard for that money she lent. if shes gone, i promise her i'll get iit back whatever it takes.

and also thank god that im registering my driver's license and needed money urgently. this way, they owe my family NO MORE.

news update on britney.

2008-03-21T08:27:00.000-07:00

again i've said i'm a huge fan of britney when she was just a normal average singer just like Xtina. but now. a little. though my fanatic love for Xtina is still super hardcore. yeah. haa haa. here's a recent update on brit and adnan(the scumbag).

When photographer Adnan Ghalib was seen getting cosy with another woman - it was thought his romance with Britney Spears was over for good.

But the Brummie-born snapper is now back with the troubled pop star, and now his secret girlfriend, model and actress, Amanda Pagel, has spoken out for the first time revealing that Adnan lied to her about his relationship with Britney denying it was sexual.

Amanda revealed how Adnan used to leave her straight after they had sex, to go to see Britney, and that he "pitied" her, and wanted to run away to Italy with his secret girlfriend.

Adnan was seen getting cosy with LA waitress Amanda earlier this month, the pair met at a celebrity event in January and quickly became an item after being introduced by a mutual friend.

In an interview with Look magazine Amanda said: "I'd just split up with my boyfriend, but I was lonely and wanted to make new friends."

He promised Amanda his relationship with Britney was not sexual and kept reminding Amanda of what a hard time he was having.

"We started texting 40-50 times a day, just jokes to start off with, then flirty messages. I'd text "can't wait to see you" and he'd reply pretty much the same thing. We saw each other pretty much every day."

She soon fell for Adnan calling him a "fantastic kisser" and "really smooth". As the pair grew closer, Adnan always visited her at her home, but they never went out in public so as not to "betray" Britney.

But he clearly didn't find it difficult to betray his feelings about the singer to Amanda.

She explained: "'He kept saying: As soon as she's better and back on her own two feet doing her own thing, we can go public.

"And he told me he 'pitied' her and felt really sorry for her. She'd been through a lot and he used to say he was the only one that she trusted."

And he suggested to Amanda that they run away together, and start a new life in Italy, where they could start a family.

Amanda said Adnan would "leave pretty quickly, after we had sex, and I think he used to head straight to Britney's."

She revealed that Britney sent Adnan hundreds of texts daily, and phoned him constantly.

She said: "Britney used to call all the time when he was over at mine. He'd answer immediately and walk into another room to speak - he always whispered into his mobile and shut the door."

But Amanda only realised she had been taken in by the 'smooth' Brummie, when she woke up to find the story splashed all over the media about the row between Britney and Adnan after the singer found their flirty texts on his mobile phone.

Britney allegedly flew into a rage, throwing the photographer's iPhone into her pool after discovering the suggestive messages.

Heartbroken Amanda said: "I felt sick. I knew the texts were one's we'd sent to each other. I used to send him texts saying "I miss your kisses" and couple y stuff like that but when I found out that Britney had seen them I freaked out and called him immediately."

Adnan promised her the story was untrue, but when days later another story broke claiming Britney was pregnant Amanda realised that that there were "three of us in this relationship - and I would never be a priority."

And callous Adnan even tried to justify his behaviour telling heartbroken Amanda "It's just time-share", confirming to Amanda that he had been sleeping with Britney all along.

Soon after a picture of Adnan leaving Amanda's home was released to the media and cowardly Adnan told her they should put things on hold until everything "blows over".

Amanda said; "I kept asking him why I had to wait for it to blow over - people were going to think of me as the girl who stole Britney's boyfriend, and that wasn't the case.

"I know he'll go mad when he reads this, but I want people to know I didn't steal Britney's boyfriend."

The pair are still in contact, with Adnan texting Amanda recently to wish her a happy 21st birthday. And a text the other day which said: "I miss you...your face, your smile, the taste of your lips, but most of all I miss your heart."

And Amanda offered some advice to the troubled star, who has since reunited with the cheating photographer.

She said: "I'd tell Britney to be careful who she trusts. I don't believe he wasn't sleeping with Britney. I just hope she doesn't get hurt like I did."

so the bottom of this crazy story: adnan is not A GOOD GUY AFTER ALL. A BIG JERK. bigger than the biggest jerk in the world.

sources: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/pages/live/articles/showbiz/showbiznews.html?in_article_id=537809&in_page_id=1773

im bored so this might be interesting to other brit fans.

transfered??

2008-03-15T08:34:00.000-07:00

my baby got transfered to other outlet.. man, the manager is sooo super mean.

guess i wont see him more than i usually do.. dang.

kicking up the box.

2008-03-13T06:22:00.000-07:00

now. although i'm abit shy showing this but i gotta tell you. it's a great exercise. its like an anger management if you have any. check it out. me and my trainer. be nice to me or feel my punches. i just wonder why my baby wasn't there.

what a day.

2008-02-21T01:07:00.000-08:00

wow, this blog has been like a ghost-town webby blog. have not touch this blog for like super long. reason being:- too busy with school. no time to type and to tired to think. my friends were right, guess its time to shut this blog down. they shut down theirs cause they say its useless. haa haa. i'll consider it.

ooh, the ex-minister came to my school. no idea why the heck he was there. everyone was like ," omg, its him." and i was like,"okay" whatever. haa haa.

we left the school after taking a glimpse of look of mr lee. and one of my friend were like, he look so cute lor with the hair like that.

head home after. nothing much to do. haa haa

this is the stupidest thing ive ever typed down. lol

who we are

2008-02-12T07:14:00.000-08:00

I don't want to put on my make-up
Just like every girl in a magazine
That's not who I am when I wake up
That's not who I want to be
There's so much more to me

That meets the eye
It's in life
I know what thing

It doesn't really matter
What you wear
Let the people stare
'Cause we are who we are
Who we are, who we are

It doesn't really matter
What car you drive
It's good to be alive
'Cause we are who we are
Who we are, who we are

Tell me baby
Do I look like the real thing?
Would you change the color of my eyes?
Tell me
Why my television's filling me with lies?

It doesn't really matter
What you wear
Let the people stare
'Cause we are who we are
Who we are, who we are

It doesn't really matter
What car you drive
It's good to be alive
'Cause we are who we are
Who we are, who we are

There's beauty on the inside
And so beautiful, whoa, whoa
Yeah, yeah, yeah

It doesn't really matter
What you wear
Let the people stare
'Cause we are who we are
Who we are, who we are

It doesn't really matter
What car you drive
It's good to be alive
'Cause we are who we are
Who we are, who we are

It doesn't really matter
What you wear
Let the people stare
'Cause we are who we are
Who we are, who we are

It doesn't really matter
What car you drive
It's good to be alive
'Cause we are who we are
Who we are, who we are

Question existing.

2008-02-09T06:55:00.000-08:00

Entertaining is something I do for a living
It's not who I am, I'd like to think that I'm pretty normal,
I laugh, I get mad, I hurt, I think
I suck sometimes,
But when you're in the spotlight,
Everything seems good,
Sometimes I feel like i have it worse cause I have to always keep my guard up,
I don't know who to trust, I don't know who wants to date me for who I am,
Or who wants to be my friend for who I really am,

Who am I living for?
Is this my limit, Can I endure some more
Chances are given, Question Existing

its official..not.

2008-01-22T16:29:00.000-08:00

guys are sooo soo hard to trust. but then again i trusted you. just because you are my PT doesn't mean i won't be bothering you. haa haa.

so, what color you guys think i should highlight my hair? blue? pink? red? auburn? gold?

let's awaits my new hair- coming soon.

18 jan 2008. marks the happiest day of my life.

2008-01-19T07:07:00.000-08:00

on this day listed on top. was one of my happiest day in the starting of 2008.

i met KECIK!. woo hoo. man, i missed her lots. we talked for a while.

and suddenly she asked me, am i still her bestfriend? and i was like what?, are you kidding me? of cause you are. no can replace her in my heart. she told me that she really misses the past. who doesn't. haa haa. i love every single moment with her. shes gotten a bit skimpier(if that even a word) and skinnier by the way.

Love you girl.

its funny how things work

2008-01-15T07:08:00.000-08:00

being with the peeps in ITE again wasn't really that bad after all.

went out with the girls today. supposedly i was asked on a date but i figured hanging out with the girls once in a while would be something.. different.

sometimes, i do feel like its the end, but its not. its just a new beginning.

why throw away your friends when there is more than enough room for you to make more? haa haa. i kinda made this up cause i was like viewing a few lyrics and its like friendship breaking up or something. and then songs like friends forever. haa haa. weird world.

for example: kelly clarkson / don't waste your time.
- don't waste your time trying to fix
- what i wanna erase what i need to forget
- don't waste your time on me my friend, friend?
- what does that even mean?
- i don't wanna your hands, your'e only pull me down
- so save your breath don't waste your song on me.

OR katherine mcphee/ over it.
- Moving on, it's my time,
-you never were a friend of mine.
-Hurt at first, a little bit,
-but now I'm so over.
-I'm so over it..

then songs like getting back together.

eg. spice girls/ headlines
Lets make the headlines loud and true,
I wanna tell the world I'm givin it all to you
Lets make the headlines loud and clear
The best things suddenly happen when you are here
If i lost my way you'd carry me home
Take me all the way to heaven never leave me alone,
And its just like everything matters when you are near
(matters when you are near)

or the cheetah girls/ cheetah sisters
Theres a time when we all choose
To either quit or follow through
To just loose faith
Or trust your heart
To somehow lead you through the dark
You're not the only one who's dreamin'
And who needs help to carry on
We might get lonely but we're not alone

so, again, why lose when you can have more? i'm typing lots of craps today cause i'm so damn bored. school sucks BTW. adios.

STILL NOTHING HAPPENING.

2008-01-08T06:16:00.000-08:00

i've been going out with you and still nothing is happening. its been months now. and dates are like soo way out.

but maybe, just maybe you need time and not ready. so am i. but i'll still accept whatever your decision is.

i might be single to you. but not for too long. sometimes a girl says she's single but she's not available if you keep her waiting though.

school starts.

2008-01-07T00:42:00.000-08:00

i couldn't believe that i manage to be in the same class as the smart people. people like nicol, rahman, fie and lots others. oh yeah, wendilyn and fiona still in my class. the power of cheating made it worth while i guess. ha ha.

school this year is super boring i can bet. now let me ask you, what does wireless lan course had to do with business management?? i think there is some good cause for it but i just don't see the link.

can't skip class this year. teacher is sooo super irritating. just like before. DANG!.

wireless lans. again

2008-01-03T03:39:00.000-08:00

finally. waited and waited. the choices of course came out.

i got in wireless lans again. i heard this time, i can create my own wireless lans. cool eh.

those who needs help. i'll be there. lol

seriously what's my next course?

2008-01-01T07:34:00.000-08:00

i'm not so thrilled knowing that school is starting soon but damn, what is my next course? how do i find out? it's not on net. and my ex-teacher that taught me last year has still not been found, and my ex classmates are all clueless. so who do i have to ask next??

who knows maybe they give electronics students another year off?? lol

COUNTDOWN 2008

2007-12-31T11:41:00.000-08:00

i wasn't really that thrilled to go for the new year's countdown cause i was pissed with him for changing his mind again and again. then i called up shimy and asked her. thank god she's available. we just wanted to see fireworks actually and went home straight after.

went with my auntie and her family. the kecohness was not there cause its damn bored. if they are not bored, I AM!. dang. shims, if you feel bored today, so sorry. i didn't know what to do.

next year resolution-

1. lose this freaking weight
2. go to polytechnic.( i can and i will)
3. be me
4. hoping that there might be something on btwn us.

happy new year everybody!

I AM LEGEND

2007-12-28T21:14:00.000-08:00

AN AWESOME MOVIE. GO WATCH IT.

THE LAST MAN ON EARTH AIN'T ALONE.

let it go. hilarious

2007-12-25T06:54:00.000-08:00

okay. whatever happens with that woman, stays within herself.

check out these 2 clips.

this is the one that misha omar had gotten her dress stucked up on stage and when she has taken it out, she was like- what the hell?.- lol

and this one, when jaclyn victor fell down on stage. she acted it cool. slow and relax.

i'm not gay!

2007-12-24T06:09:00.000-08:00

i can't believe you go around telling people that i dated you. i've been helping you and go through all shit and you're telling people we've dated before?? !!

WHY??!!

you're a girl and so am i. i treated every girl fair and square. and where am i supposed to keep my boyfriend?? inside my pocket? up my nose?. please, news travel fast. stop all these.

i don't want to be labelled or known as GAY. i'm not. if being nice to you means telling people i'm dating with you or had dated you before then i tell you one thing. our friendship-officially OVER!! my boyfriend ain't happy bout it. so better watch what you say.!!

think about it.

Asian Idol

2007-12-16T08:11:00.000-08:00

today results was totally not expected.

HADY MIRZA WON! no. i mean c'mon. competitions are big and the others sings way more better than him.

but at the end of the day, i have to say as a Singaporean, i'm proud of him.

i still prefer Jaclyn Victor though. even though she's malaysian. She rocks to the core. Yeah.

i'm so sorry

2007-12-14T01:25:00.000-08:00

apologies to all these people-

mama vic-
dila-
sundae-
adlin-
ali-
hubert-
jasper-
sharon-
angela-
frances-

im sorry to leave you aside during the sale period. i just can't stand her the monkey. sorry.

today, tomorrow, the next day

2007-12-10T02:06:00.000-08:00

the freaking shop wanna give me attitude, i'll show them attitude...!!!

today, take mc.
tomorrow, off day.
the next day, RESIGN!!

show more concern to your workers next time people!!

man, i missed her.

2007-12-03T07:51:00.000-08:00

i went out with shims earlier today and OMG, she look so different. a bit slimmer i must say. she keep saying she's fat but SHE'S NOT. i asked her to come over to my house cause i don't like to stay there alone with my 'cousin'. it really is damn irritating. trust me. try living under the same roof as her. i'm so glad i met up with her today. love her lots!! lol

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE!

2007-11-28T20:59:00.000-08:00

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE IN SINGAPORE. DANG, I CAN'T CATCH IT. WILL BE WORKING. THUMBS UP FOR THEM!!

never again

2007-11-27T21:18:00.000-08:00

you didn't say you're sorry.
i don't understand.
you don't care if you have hurt me.
and now i'm half a girl, that i used to be.

partying in school? wierd

2007-11-20T04:43:00.000-08:00

we had a little party yesterday and it was BORING. cause no one actually co-operated. well, games played and weird shaped balloons blown. check out the pictures.

twitches too

2007-11-18T07:02:00.000-08:00

man, i must admit even though disney channel are for kids but twitches too was totally cool. i mean besides of make believe that witches exist or magical power and living in 2 dimension, okay okay enough. but you guys do hav to watch it. starring tia and tamera mowry who just celebrated their 29th birthday recently.

i do know my stuff. toodles

i hate it.

2007-11-13T18:50:00.000-08:00

i hate it when someone who gets the simplest job but couldn't get it done fast.

you know we did so many pages and can complete in only a week and you took 3 weeks to get it done.

if i were to follow my heart, i would have cancelled your name out long ago.

deadline was last week. you should have known better.

our nap time

2007-11-13T00:21:00.000-08:00

fiona and wendilyn came over today. skipped school and came over to sleep. well, at least me and fiona was and wend was like playing on the computer.

ard 2.30, wend slide in the middle of us. and the 3 of us slept together on the bed. it was funny. and wend, she actually woke me up from my sleep. my bed is now a KING SIZE BED!. lol

we can't believe its been a years since we know each other.

i remember my first day, the first person i talked to was wendi. shes funny but irritating MOST of the time, but she's my girl. haa haa.

Eugene keep talking about shit when we were eating. that really turns down my appetite and makes me sick. i am sick to be honest.

exams coming, work with RSH is soon too. everything moved on soo fast.

videos. taken during raya. with friends.

2007-11-09T06:19:00.000-08:00

at mdm sharifah's place.

this is the funny one. i don 't know why we are so scared going to ms ida house. and we actually don't know her doorstep. and everyone was like asking which one. the one with shoe racks or the one with a frog statue outside. nana said in malay, ' takkan rumah dier ader katak'. and the statue was damn big lah. haa haa. we heard footsteps at the last part, but there's no one. nana looked so scared. everyone is.lol

this is at mr ghazali house. i'm being my nonsence self trying to have fun.

britney's new album 'blackout'

2007-11-09T05:44:00.000-08:00

i must admit i'm a huge huge fan of britney spears and seeing what she's going through now, it really is hard for her. but i believe one day she will make the right decision and people will accept as who she is.

heard her new album 'blackout'?

i've heard a couple on the internet and i must say its quite refreshing. something new.

it's like a bit of trance, ballad, r'n'b and hip hop. its basically a mix of everything.

i really like her song titled 'piece of me', the song almost tell what's happening in her life and how's things got stuck up. the lyrics are below.

it kinda reflects me, well, not with the mama type of song but the chorus part, kicks up the song.
i think thats what keeps her moving. goo brit..

piece of me-britney spears

I'm Miss American Dream since I was 17
Don't matter if I step on the scene
Or sneak away to the Philippines
They still got pictures of my derri¨re in the magazine
You want a piece of me?
You want a piece of me...

I'm Miss bad media karma
Another day another drama
Guess I can't see no harm
In working and being a mama
And with a kid on my arm
I'm still an exception
And you want a piece of me

I'm Mrs. Lifestyles of the rich and famous
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Oh my God that Britney's Shameless
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Exta! Extra! this just in
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. she's too big now she's too thin
(You want a piece of me)

I'm Mrs. 'You want a piece of me?'
Tryin' and pissin' me off
Well get in line with the paparazzi
Who's flippin' me off
Hopin' I'll resort to startin' havoc
And end up settlin' in court
Now are you sure you want a piece of me?
I'm Mrs. 'Most likely to get on TV for strippin' on the streets'
When getting the groceries, no, for real..
Are you kidding me?
Causing panic in the industry

I'm Mrs. Lifestyles of the rich and famous
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Oh my God that Britney's Shameless
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Exta! Extra! this just in
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. she's too big now she's too thin
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Miss American Dream since I was 17
Don't matter if I step on the scene
Or sneak away to the Philippines
They still got pictures of my derri¨re in the magazine
You want a piece of me?
You want a piece of me...
You want a piece of me?
I'm Mrs. Lifestyles of the rich and famous
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Oh my God that Britney's Shameless
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Exta! Extra! this just in
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. she's too big now she's too thin
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Lifestyles of the rich and famous
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Oh my God that Britney's Shameless
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. Exta! Extra! this just in
(You want a piece of me)
I'm Mrs. she's too big now she's too thin
(You want a piece of me)
Oh yeah
You want a piece of me

i got a job again

2007-11-06T21:32:00.000-08:00

my manager called me a few days ago. and guess what, i got a job. the same old job that i used to do during the school holidays.

i'm so excited. i remembered my manager telling us on our last day that the december sales will be more hectic and it's gonna be crazy. since christmas is on the same day as well.

i think i can handle it. right?

well. ha ha, i'm in school. i'll update again later.

first time out raya with these people.

2007-10-27T05:22:00.000-07:00

man, this is the first time going raya with my friends. hope it wont be the last. haa haa. we had such great time, well, i was. i tried all sort of things to make them laugh and make me laugh so i wont get bored. in the bus, lina told me that she hope our friendship will last long. i told her not to worry so much about it. here are some pictures taken.

i just don't feel good.

2007-10-23T20:29:00.001-07:00

i don't know why but ever since that day. i don't feel good at all. and when jmo type his nickname "most of us never appreciate things until it gone.". it kinda ring a bell in my head.

i never and i mean never appreciate things. and how is that possible. why is my attitude suck as such? and to this extend i have myself to blame.

i tried all stuff to get rid of one but i lost the other instead.

diane, thanks to you, you ruin my life.

like shima said, life is a bitch itself. apply that to yourself diane.

i just don't feel good.

2007-10-23T20:29:00.000-07:00

raya raya raya.

2007-10-21T05:28:00.001-07:00

had a good day today?? ha ha.

i invited just a few people instead of the whole class.

and thank god, a few came. if alot, i would have not cared much.

because of it, i had to wake up damn early. we had lotsa fun. and THEY destroyed my bed with their pillow fight!! how childish was that?

LOL

life moving on slowly

2007-10-16T22:52:00.000-07:00

i got to move on a be who i am.
i just don't belong here, i hope you understand.
we might find a place in this world someday,
but at least for now, i gotta go my own way.

------martin came back to school. and he's been disturbing us all. haa haa. stop poking!!! ha ha.

second day of school and nothing much has change.

inviting all of them on saturday. a few. i din invite the nerds group. UNINVITED. haa haa

to all who read this blog. come over my house on saturday.20th oct 2007.

sure hell lot of boring stuff. haa haa.

gotta go off now, martin keeps poking us. stop hor.!! lol

you win.

2007-10-16T09:03:00.000-07:00

either way, you win. i'll take a step back. i'll do my stuff and you'll do yours. this is better than me and you getting all hurt and all. i didn't care about others much before like i care for them more now.

thank you for making me realise that i'm the worst than ever. i'm use to hear that everytime. too much that whatever i wanna say now meant nothing.

i'm worst than you think i am, and i'm more evil than the demon itself. i drive myself to insanity just to get what i always wanted.

i have the smallest heart in the world to not notice any of these. i'm not kind, i'm not generous and i'm not what i'm supposed to be.

i thank you for saying that stuff about me. it really makes me realise and also made me embarrased of myself which i really deserve.

too bad i'm not me anymore. can never be, can never will.

i don't expect you to trust me of forgive me. i won't back down. i did what i felt was right. and i did what my heart told me to do. think it brought me to the wrong path instead.

i'm sorry for all the trouble i've caused you. i didn't want it to be this way.

i had a dream that we had a fight weeks ago, guess that came true.

well, i'm a big pain in the ass. and such a big drama mama and all. i wont cause you anymore trouble.

although, i must admit that i bought it just for you and my sisters, and i'll have it sent to you as soon as i can for my thanks to what you've done for me.

either way, you win. and i'm sorry.

either way, im getting a new phone.

2007-10-15T23:59:00.000-07:00

joining the sony ericcson club.

biggest mistake.

2007-10-15T23:48:00.000-07:00

A few questions that I need to know
how you could ever hurt me so
I need to know what I've done wrong
and how long it's been going on
Was it that I never paid enough attention?
Or did I not give enough affection?
Not only will your answers keep me sane
but I'll know never to make the same mistake again
You can tell me to my face or even on the phone
You can write it in a letter, either way, I have to know
Did I never treat you right?
Did I always start the fight?
Either way, I'm going out of my mind
all the answers to my questions
I have to find

good girls gone bad

2007-10-15T09:21:00.000-07:00

Rihanna - Good Gir...

good girls gone bad- rihanna

We stay moving around, solo
Ask us where you at, we don't know
And don't care (don't care)
All we know is we was at home cause you left us there
You got your boys and got gone
And left us all alone
Now she in the club with a freaky dress on
Cats don't want her to keep that dress on
Trying to get enough drinks in her system
Take it to the tele and make her a victim

Patron on brain, ball play you in the face
They shake the spot, she's just another case

[Chorus]
Easy for a good girl to go bad
And once we gone (gone)
Best believe we've gone forever
Don't be the reason
Don't be the reason
You better learn how to treat us right
'Cause onces a good girl goes bad
We gone forever

He's staying with a flock of them, oh, yeah
Got a girl at home but he don't care
Won't care (won't care)
All he'll do is keep me at home, won't let me go no-where
He thinks because I'm at home I won't be getting it on
And now I'm finding numbers in the jacket pockets
Chicks calling the house, non stop its
Getting out of control
Finally I can't take no more
He finds a letter on the stairs, saying this is the end
I packed my bag and left with your best friend

[Chorus]

We stay moving around, solo
Ask us where you at, we don't know
And don't care (don't care)
All we know is we was at home cause you left us there
You got your boys and got gone
And left us all alone

[Chorus]

We're gone forever
We're gone forever

mama

2007-10-15T09:17:00.000-07:00

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mama- mcr

Mama, we all go to hell.
Mama, we all go to hell.
I'm writing this letter and wishing you well,
Mama, we all go to hell.

Oh, well, now,
Mama, we're all gonna die.
Mama, we're all gonna die.
Stop asking me questions, I'd hate to see you cry,
Mama, we're all gonna die.

And when we go don't blame us, yeah.
We'll let the fires just bathe us, yeah.
You made us, oh, so famous.
We'll never let you go.
And when you go don't return to me my love.

Mama, we're all full of lies.
Mama, we're meant for the flies.
And right now they're building a coffin your size,
Mama, we're all full of lies.

Well Mother, what the war did to my legs and to my tongue,
You should've raised a baby girl,
I should've been a better son.
If you could coddle the infection
They can amputate at once.
You should've been,
I could have been a better son.

And when we go don't blame us, yeah.
We'll let the fires just bathe us, yeah.
You made us, oh, so famous.
We'll never let you go.

She said: "You ain't no son of mine
For what you've done they're gonna find
A place for you
And just you mind your manners when you go.
And when you go, don't return to me, my love."
That's right.

Mama, we all go to hell.
Mama, we all go to hell.
It's really quite pleasant
Except for the smell,
Mama, we all go to hell.

2 - 3 - 4
Mama! Mama! Mama! Ohhh!
Mama! Mama! Mama! Ma...

[Liza Minelli:] And if you would call me your sweetheart,
I'd maybe then sing you a song

[Gerard Way:] But there's shit that I've done with this fuck of a gun,
You would cry out your eyes all along.

We're damned after all.
Through fortune and flame we fall.
And if you can stay then I'll show you the way,
To return from the ashes you call.

We all carry on (We all carry on)
When our brothers in arms are gone (When our brothers in arms are gone)
So raise your glass high
For tomorrow we die,
And return from the ashes you call.

beautiful girls

2007-10-15T09:09:00.000-07:00

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beautiful girls- jojo

I'm way too cool for ya boy
That's why it'll never work
I'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When I say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
We're only gonna do your dirt
We'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When I say it's over

Yeah yeah

I remember when
I was hanging with my friends
That's when I caught your eye
You thought that I was fly
Right then you wished that I would be your baby (be your baby)
You try to spit some game
Asking me girl what's your name
All that ice upon ya chain
So I asked you the same
Something tells me that we have fun together (fun together)

I ain't easy to find
I'm one of a kind
Oh when I dutty wine
I know your only mine
Tonight is yours
Tomorrow is for another guy (another guy)

I'm way too cool for ya boy
That's why it'll never work
I'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When I say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
We're only gonna do your dirt
We'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When I say it's over

You've been calling me
Leaving messages all week
Was your curiosity
Got ya knees weak
I'm not looking for a man
So I don't want no confusion (no confusion)
I took ya to the floor
Got ya begging me for more
But that was my queue to go
So I hit the door
I let you hot
With your mind used to running wild (running wild)

I ain't easy to find
I'm one of a kind
Oh when I dutty wine
I know your only mine
If you stick around
Be careful not to fall in love (fall in love)

I'm way too cool for ya boy
That's why it'll never work
I'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When I say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
We're only gonna do your dirt
We'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When I say it's over

Now a couple months have passed
Never thought that this would last
Oh everybody asked
How ya got a girl like that
But you should've known
That nothing lasts forever (lasts forever)
I mashed up ya mind
When I tell you lies
But boy don't be surprised
That I'm seeing other guys
I'm too young to settle
And you should've known better (known better)

Damn all these beautiful girls (you should have known)
We're only gonna do your dirt (cos I'll have)
I'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When I say it's over

cinta

2007-10-15T09:00:00.000-07:00

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amy mastura- cinta

Jika ditanya tentang cinta
Macam macamlah jawapannya
Ada cinta yang bawa ceria
Ada cinta sanggup merana

Sanggup berkorban apa saja
Hilang kawan
Hilang keluarga
Lebih baik cinta pada yang esa

Hidup ini penuh pancaroba
Kiri kanan masalah saja
Janganlah derita kerna cinta
Kerana cinta bahagia

(Korus)
Kalau benar cinta itu buta
Siapakah jadi mangsanya
Kalau cinta itu cinta setia
Nangis ketawa sama hahaha

Kalau kita boleh beli cinta
Berapa pula harganya
Alangkah indah kita dicinta
Kerna hidup kita lebih bahagia

satu harapan

2007-10-15T08:54:00.000-07:00

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satu harapan- jaclyn victor

Biar pun beribu halangan
Mahu umpatan dari sesiapa
Takkan ku membiarkan saja
Luahan kata mereka
Tiap hari ku ucapkan
Satu persatu cita-cita
Mimpi yang terbit dari
Jiwa berkhayalan di minda
*
Satu harapan membara dan menyala
Kan menyinari perjalananku
Sejauh langit biru takkan ku berpatah arang
Harapanku membawa kaki melangkah
Melakar rasa kehadirannya
Kan terpahat namaku diingatanmu
Biar sekuat mana hati
Menjerit hiba meronta-ronta
Tak ku hanyut dalam lamunan
Tak mungkin menitis airmata
Aku harus ku tegar membawa
Harapan ini ke alam nyata
Agar bisa ku raih
Angan dan sejuta impian
(Ulang *)
Harapan yang tersimpan kian lama
Menghimpun segala pergorbanana
Suka duka ku jalani
Dengan tabah tiada putusan asa
(Ulang *)
Satu harapan menyala

buang yang keruh ambil yang jernih.

2007-10-15T08:33:00.000-07:00

to all my cousins, here's a msg.

azlan- lan, kau mintak maaf ngan aku kat msn tak pakai. aku nak kau minta maaf face to face. duit raya kau aku potong baru kau tahu.

azman-man, kau pun samer, kacau aku, aku sunat kan kau lagi satu kali baru kau tahu. haa haa.
ida- ida, aku adik kau punya sekek kau. haa haa. takper. di maafkan.

liza-thank you kasih aku duit raya. di mints seribu tahun ampun.

to my friends.

jmo- thanks for the early wish, geylang was soooo packed on the eve of raya. haa haa

rizal- kau aperhal pagi raya msg aku kasi darah up babe.haas.

wendi-hey, thanks. so going out with nazri?

message to everyone.
everyone makes mistake, everyone has those days, its now the day we forgive and ask for forgiveness.

:) i really miss kecik. thanks for smsing me.

tak ada guna nya

2007-10-09T08:27:00.000-07:00

tak ada guna nya bila bermaafan tapi tak ikhlas.

tak ada guna nya ada kawan tapi hilang keluaga.

tak ada guna nya ada keluarga tapi lupa sedara.

tak guna nya aku memujuk rayu tapi tak dapat apa-apa.

dan sia-sia aku mempertaruhkan diri untuk membaiki sesuatu.

aku kehilangan kawan, tapi alhamdullilah aku masih ada keluarga.

hidup cuma sekali, so kita enjoy.!

geylang!

2007-10-09T07:32:00.000-07:00

went out with those peeps. met a couple of friends today. met wardah and nasha. went to see my uncle selling carpet. want discounts?? haa haa

still holidays??

2007-10-08T22:20:00.000-07:00

man, the holidays is soo freaking long.

i've been stuck at home doing major studies for the major exam right after the holidays. dang.. i'm sooooo tired.

i need to get at least a 4 pointer to get to poly. seems impossible.

you found me.

2007-10-08T07:10:00.000-07:00

You found me,
When no one else was looking.
How did you know just where I would be?
you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me.

and i thank you.

played pool. such great game

2007-10-07T07:46:00.001-07:00

played pool a couple of days back. played pool almost every week. kinda beginner but i kinda get into the game. even though i lost a few matches, i didn't actually lost that bad. haa haa.

also, wend, thanks.

and to yung zhi, PROVE IT!

i'm back

2007-09-28T02:14:00.000-07:00

i'm back in blogging.
guess i can't let some stupid people stop me from whatever i wanna do.
it took me so long to think about it. but i finally came to realise, SO WHAT?
got that phrase from the tyra show. telling everybody, 'SO WHAT?'

i must say this time of the year is very hectic. final exams are coming. i don't get to go out with my friends cause eveyone's busy. i had to stay at home EVERYDAY and crack my brain till it dies. such luck. we'll, my trip to KL with my cousin and sister was great. Only the 3 of us. haa haa. i'm just a bit disappointed at the place that we went. that's all. overall, nothing much in particular. bought my whole family a lil something each.

i can't help myself from shutting myself from the world. guess it's better that way.

MY LAST BLOG.

2007-08-28T20:38:00.000-07:00

hey, this will be my last post. i decided that i want to stop blogging cause i think i rather keep things to myself than telling everyone my stories and make them hate me as well as my friends.

my tag board is still on. and i will reply.

thanks to you those who stopped my from blogging and make me stray away from life.

Anytime

2007-08-28T19:58:00.000-07:00

Anytime you feel like you just can’t hold on
Just hold on to my love and I’ll help you be strong
But you’re so afraid to lose, and baby I can’t reach your heart
I can’t face this world that’s keeping us apart
When I can be the one to show you
Everything you missed before
Just hold on now, cause I could be the one to give you more
Let you know

Anytime you need love baby I’m on your side
Just let me be the one I can make it alright
Anytime you need love baby you're in my heart
I can make it alright

I look into your eyes, and I feel it coming through
And I can’t help but want you more than I want to
So baby take all of your fears, and cast them all on me
'Cause all I ever wanted was just to make you see
That I could be the one to give you
All that you’ve been searching for
Just hold on to my love, and baby let me give you more
You know, anytime

And now there’s no way out
And I can’t help the way I feel
'Cause baby you’re the fire and I’ll be waiting right here
You know my love is real, baby
Yeah yeah yeah

holidays

2007-08-28T07:32:00.000-07:00

holiday was great. free time. own room. room sevice. EXPENSIVE!

i've had enough, PLEASE!

2007-08-27T07:37:00.000-07:00

now i'm gonna say this once so make sure y'all get it right.

if you are my friend, you have no right to tell me who i should or i should not hang out with!

so what if i've known y'all longer. is it wrong for me to have more?!

let me be free from troubles okay??!!

and if you guys dare talk about my friend again, be ready to get hell from God.

and also "grow up bitches and bastards". claro?? en gracias.

im sick of this childish stuff. DAMN!!

its been a long time since i blogged.

2007-08-12T07:28:00.000-07:00

it's been so long since i last blogged. i never knew that there are few who read my blog and even called me to keep on writing my everyday boring life. how concerned. thanks you guys loads. esp my girls Diane and Lizzie aka Liz. lets go back to Wednesday.

Wednesday - 8th august 2007

went to school as usual in the morning but found out no attendance was taken. and while sitting at the auditorium aka forum, i decided to catch a movie instead after school. i called my cousin. my close cousin and asked him to join me and shima. we were supposedly meeting at 3pm but shima lost her card and that made us delay. i told my cousin, if he wants to be angry, be angry at shima instead. we catch the 5.05pm Rush hour 3 movie at the Cathay. since I've never spend my money on anyone, i decided that i spent it on my love ones. ha Haas. everything was cool, with me and her. bloody bloody blah blah. and ooh, shima said something about me and my cousin being so violent or harsh with each other. well, that's the way it has always been.

me and my cousin's who were most of them are boys used to play together when we were kid. every cousin's does. we learn cool tricks from our late grandpa which brought us together till now. we used to fight. but we were kids. we did not know any better. and we still keep our relationship going.

to tell you guys something about family. after my grandad and grandma passed away, the closest thing that my mom ever had was her sisters. but, something happened between them and they are now like strangers to each other. we seldom talk to our other auntie's and uncles or even their child. we felt that we had lost or had a broken family line. but thank god, my auntie who lives in jurong was the closest thing that we ever had. i knew i can count on them when i need help. and they can count on me and my family. i just got to treasure them like i always do.

i will never forget these few words someone asked me in Malay. "bila kau mati, kau cari kawan ke sedara?" means that if i die, will friends or family come first. my cousin thought bout it and we came to a conclusion to always be together.

always cousins
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i realised i found you

2007-08-07T07:18:00.000-07:00

You're fit to commit because you've met the right person

Are You Fit to Commit?
Brought to you by Tickle

a lyric dedicated to my dearie hotbabe

2007-08-03T06:24:00.000-07:00

It seems like a lifetime
Since I felt like a prisoner of my dreams, yeah
It took such a long time
For me to realize just how to be
And to listen to me

Don't go thinking I'm not thankful,
'Cause me, I've got my hands full of good things, oh
And I hope I can give back
A little bit of what you've given me

So thank you for standing right by me (I will always love you)
So thank you for being behind me (You are just so amazing)
And watching me grow and letting others know
That you still believe in what I'll be

Some people have said things in times
About me that weren't always true
Ooh yeah
But you've always been there
To give that extra love to pull me through
To do what I gotta do

Cause there'll always be those ups and downs
But you've always seemed to stick around and see
See me through to believe.

i'm thankful to you for having my back.

good girls gone bad

2007-08-01T08:05:00.000-07:00

We stay moving around, solo
Ask us where you at, we don't know
And don't care (don't care)
All we know is we was at home cause you left us there
You got your boys and got gone
And left us all alone
Now she in the club with a freaky dress on
Cats don't want her to keep that dress on
Trying to get enough drinks in her system
Take it to the tele and make her a victim

Controlling the brain, ball play you in the face
They shake the spot, she's just another case

Easy for a good girl to go bad
And once we gone (gone)
Best believe we've gone forever
Don't be the reason
Don't be the reason
You better learn how to treat us right
Cause onces a good girl goes bad
We're gone forever

He's staying with a flack of them all, yeah
Got a girl at home but he don't care
Won't care (won't care)
All he'll do is keep me at home, won't let me go no-where
He thinks because I'm at home I won't be getting it on
And now I'm finding numbers in the jacket pockets
Chicks calling the house, non stop its
Getting out of control
Finally I can't take no more
He finds a letter on the stairs, saying this is the end
I packed my bag and left with your best friend

We stay moving around, solo
Ask us where you at, we don't know
And don't care (don't care)
All we know is we was at home cause you left us there
You got your boys and got gone
And left us all alone

We're gone forever

another day. another boring day

2007-07-31T06:22:00.000-07:00

today's day wasn't that entirely boring day i must say. with a lot people being proud of me cause ' the old Ernie is back'. shes' no more the bitch that she used to be. and with that i gotta someone to thank. my friends who stood by me, who were listening to my every problem. thank you, Jm0, farah, Izzat, Man and not to forget my dearest hero, Zi.

these few weeks had been hectic i must say. i mean, ive been very rude to some teachers lately and i just don't know why. i gotta survive school somehow. man. i'm just so happy to be thankful them.

hope i'll be more cheery as always. hope the old me stays in within. haa haa

are we not clicking?

2007-07-30T05:05:00.000-07:00

i aint feeling it.

why is that so?

just because i lose myself to something, i lose everything?

man, what's happening?

super pissed and something i must admit

2007-07-27T04:52:00.000-07:00

now im gonna type this in the most harshest ways possible.

went to school as usual. late. and when i reach, the are no one in class. bloody hell. then i called one of my friend. she lagi gerek, she told me there are no class. then i was like , WTH. then i sat in school for like an hour cause teacher said we can only clock out at 10. i was like so pissed off.

was supposed to meet the guys in school, but i met a friend outside instead to settle some problem. and i thought i was ot in the wrong but all the accusations was pointing at me. so freaking f pissed and i told em, go to hell and i told em, we are not friends, we never were. i cried eventually but i just walk off.

met the girls at school and my heartaches were onto them. i wasnt in any mood. so i just kept quiet, most of the time, i hide my angryness and just make em laugh. its the least i can do.

met shima after, but i waited for like 30mins. but in that 30 mins, i met a friend of mine again, and we had a short talk about us, and both suddenly break down. i cried, so do they. and by the time you know, shima reached. i couldnt show her that im crying so i told myself to b happy most of the time when i'm not. i wasn't in a mood to go out actually, but shima has been so busy with her stuff and i think that today was the day that she can have time for me. so i went with her and follow her buy this skinny jeans that she wants sooo badly.

after receiving a msg, i totally change. from happy to angry. i mean like, i thought it was over. but it was not. if i had known, i'll kill myself. after, asked shima to go home cause she look damn tired.

i got something to admit.

i thought i lost someone dear to me.

i thought i might never talk to her.

but after all this time, i knew she was there for me and i do miss her, even though at times my ego's are huge than anything else.

she took care of my well-being.

and i will love her so dearly to me. shes's none other than..

loner is the way to live.

2007-07-24T22:20:00.000-07:00

okay.. school has been sooo boring from the day it re-open. not that i don't have friends, i do, but i think it's better off that i'll be alone. now that i know a lot of stuff still happen even during my presence, the best way to get out of it is to ignore. only for now, it can't always be ignored forever.

had a long talk with shima last night. it was very long indeed. ended bout like for an hour or less. talked about stuff and all. about her ehem guy and how shes still not over it. i can't help her much. i don't know how to. i'm still stucked in school still thinking of a way out and a way of surviving. imagine not having anyone by your side. ha ha. i do miss her lots. i mean, besides my family, she's the only one who understands my feelings and my secrets. but after all, i can't depend on her much. shes has her life. live with it dude. dang.

im in web design class right now. hmm, oh yar. i miss my liezel. my sayang. she called last 3 days ago and we talked longer than i spoke to shima on phone. shes resigning soon and she wants to hang out with us. well, duh i will hang out with her. who doesnt. she help us doing running most of the rime while we were working. hanging clothes when no one wants to. And shes going back to her hometown soon. but hey, she's wanting to continue study as a nursing student in MY school. but that will be like next year. i can wait. for her. my sayang. HAHAHAHA. i love you aite girl.

wedding day.

2007-07-22T08:41:00.000-07:00

its my cousin's wedding day today and thank god nothing happen. i mean, something 'bad' happened last time. thank god its much better this year. manage to take couple of pics. and boy, it was so tiring today. check this out. less words, more pictures.

a walk down to memory lane at taka

2007-07-16T04:55:00.000-07:00

okay okay, ive been bragging about work. but off all the work place ive worked at. this is still the coolest thing that ive ever experience. lets view the pictures. as you walk down to memory lane of me working....

I'm missing you guys loads. esp my sayang liezel.. where are you??

no more doing that stupid stuff kays??

this is to those who think your friend STINKS!!

2007-07-12T06:59:00.000-07:00

don't waste your time - kelly clarkson (songs on the left side, click play)

It's over, it's over, it's over:

It seems you can't hear me
When I open my mouth you never listen
You say stay, but what does that mean
Do you think I honestly want to be reminded forever

Don't waste your time trying to fix
What I want to erase
What I need to forget
Don't waste your time on me my friend
Friend, what does that even mean
I don't want your hand
You'll only pull me down
So save your breath
Don't waste your song
On me, on me
Don't waste your time

It's not easy not answering
Every time I want to talk to you
But I can't
If you only knew the hell I put myself through
Replaying memories in my head of you and I
Every night

Don't waste your time trying to fix
What I want to erase
What I need to forget
Don't waste your time on me my friend
Friend, what does that even mean
I don't want your hand
You'll only pull me down
So save your breath
Don't waste your song
On me, on me
Don't waste your time

You're callin'
You're talkin'
You're tryin'
Tryin' to get in
But it's over, it's over, it's over
Friend

Don't waste your time trying to fix it
So save your breath, don't waste your song
On me, on me
Don't waste your time

You held me
You felt me
You left me
But it's over, it's over, it's over
You touched me
You had me
But it's over, it's over, it's over my friend
Don't waste my time

school galore. school shucks. missed working

2007-07-10T22:31:00.000-07:00

okay.. its now the third day of school. wow, not much difference i must say. although i must admit, i do miss working more now than schooling. i missed all of those crazy full timers. my favourites people like Elaine, Liezal, Dilla, Mama Vic, Jasper, Angel and many others.

i remebered during sales period we were all working our butts off till like 1.30 in the morning. i missed those days. now that i kinda get into the habit of working till late night, i can't even sleep even though its 2 in the morning. guess i gotta tire myself out.

what is going on in my life i never know. i thought life passed so fast and everything seems normal but i guess it doesn't. life is full of ups and also a lot more of downs.

i don't wanna care about others now that i know my life is like this. the more i tried helping others, the more i can't help myself or even find help from outside.

the truth is, i've still not learnt my lesson on any of the reality that is going on in the world. women need more than 2 things in life. while man, only 2, and that is money and women. once they have both, they are already at the both worlds.

it hurts me to see the one i loved, love somebody else.

if thats is what you say my future holds, so then be it. it is better to have loved and lost than not to have love at all. right?

one day, i'll see you on the streets, saying hello's and bye's. and maybe, talking bout the old sweet time. but not all the sweet love..

guess, i'll never know. its up to HIM to decide..

before the goodbye

2007-07-10T07:48:00.000-07:00

last day. before the goodbye. at 11.30pm. missed you all!!

work for 3 weeks and i'm surviving.

2007-06-27T06:45:00.000-07:00

its now the 3rd week I'm working and boy it was so tiring. going back home at 1 in the morning everyday and by the time you know it, you had to get to work again the next morning, and again, ended up late. although some said it was not worth it, i feel like quitting but i just can't. it doesn't feel right. all my colleagues are cool. and i got to know them better.

usually, i started of being Friends with the part-timers. and now, I'm being Friends with the full-timers. they are so way cool. in a way. they helped us part-timers alot. we joked with each other even when we are working. like yesterday. everyone was like zombie and we had to keep each other awake so we were making up some stories and singing and trust me, it was kinda embarrassing, but some of the customers actually laughed with us.

and boy, some customers crack us up by asking all these weird questions. I'll tel you guys when i meet you. haa haa. anyways. even though we were asked to stay till late night, there are at times whereby they bought us bubble tea to end the night. well, at least it was better than nothing right??

this is where we like to hang out during our lunch time and breaks or having 'take-five'. just outside burberry. we should be around there when there's not a lot of people though.

that's liezel and nilla. they were with me during lunch. they are permanent residence of Singapore though.

now, i tell you. during closing time was the most tiring thing ever. why can't the customers be kind enough and return the clothes properly?? now, because of that, we had to clear all the mess and get ready for tomorrow. even if it takes all night. haa haa...

now, who is this guy?? he's name is zi xing. but we call him zee. he's funny and hardworking. and also, he may be hot to others and he is cute in a way. and the only sayang that he have is his bike and .. ehem..

this is us waiting to get our bubble tea that murni rushed out to but before shop closes.

now, this is babe. why do i call her babe?? cause the truth is, her name is babe. and shes also one funny girl. she cracks us up. using her favourite word 'irritating'. her son's damn cute though. look somewhat like her.

that wraps up my 3 weeks of work. haa haa, so watcha think?

SALES work, not my thang. haa haa

2007-06-17T08:50:00.000-07:00

okay, work was sooo tiring. ive imagine standing for so long but i never imagine the pain and the tiredness. first few days was okay as we did some clothes stocking. and boy that was tiring too. we had to rush here and there. pinning on sensor tags on the back of the clothes. and trust me, there's blood bound to found. since sale is staring soon, gonna dier all the way till i end my contract which is like still loooong way to go.

my collegues are cool though. some are from poly and some from ite, just like me. people like Chloe <>, Shu feng, Amy, Yvonne, Elvi, Yati, Babe, Jodine, and the ever coolest Manager Vicky. we call her mama though. cause shes like our so dear mom.

weekends galore

2007-06-12T07:52:00.000-07:00

spent the whole entire weekend at JURONG. i wasn't feel well, not as in physically. i was so hurt and i cried and cried non-stop. have no one to turn to. and of course i didn't tell anyone what was happening. i just feel that i should tell to someone who i am close with..
well heres some pictures.